Once I Was Lost
by: MrsPejay
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For many years I have felt there was something missing in my life, yet could never quite put my finger on it. Whenever I thought about it, I would dismiss the feeling with some excuse from what ever was happening in my life at that particular time.
I had always believed in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I was raised with a Christian background and baptized as a baby into the Anglican faith. My mother had also shared her catholic faith with us as my brother and I grew up. God was always someone who was there to talk too when no one else was around. I knew about many of the bible stories, which was taught during my youth. He was someone to believe in, but that was about all I knew about Him.
During a very traumatic period of my life, I turned to the Internet and chat rooms for company. Seeking that something to fill that ever growing void in my life. One night while sitting in a chat room talking about all sorts of silly things, someone messaged me and asked me if I knew Jesus. I was taken aback at first and eventually replied yes. We started to talk about Jesus and His awesomeness. I was becoming more and more intrigued with what this person was saying.
Eventually we gained a lovely friendly relationship, ministering to each other, as we were both in marriages that were something less than favourable. Both of us would encourage the other to try making our marriages work, giving simply loving pieces of advice.
I was married to an abusive husband who worked away from home, who eventually told me to leave with the young child we had in our care. Totally miserable and feeling deserted I packed up our belongings and put the house up for sale. This friend I had on the Internet’s mother invited my child and I to go and stay with them for a while until I could sort out what I wanted to do in my life. Then go back home and start anew.
This was an offer that was hard to refuse and we went on a journey that would change our lives. I met this wonderful man who had ministered to me so many nights on the Internet. Neither of us had any intention of taking our relationship further than just friendship, but it did. For twelve months we courted until it was time for my daughter and I to go home.
For three miserable months, I would wonder if we would ever find a way of being together again. We lived a world apart, he in Canada and me in Australia. I had convinced myself that he was what was missing in my life.
It wasn’t until one night in August of 1999 when I was sitting alone in the dark of night, when the revelation struck me. Yes my wonderful man who I loved so very much and could not be with was someone who could fill a gap in my life, but he was not what was missing. He was not that one thing that would make my life totally complete.
Even though I knew him and loved him, I had not accepted him as part of my life. Jesus was what was missing. Jesus is the only being that could ever fill that huge void in my life and make it complete. At 2.30 am on Thursday the 12th of August 1999, I asked Jesus into my life. My tears of sadness and loneliness turned to tears of joy. I was dancing and singing in the dark lounge room. Any other time I would have felt like a right fool, but at this very special time of my life I only felt exhilaration.
I was still dancing and singing at 3.05am when the phone started to ring. It was my wonderful man from Canada. He was ringing to tell me that his family had purchased an airline ticket for him to come to Australia to marry me. He arrived on my Birthday and neither of us have looked back since.
Only God can perform such miracles of saving a lost and lonely woman and bringing two people from opposite sides of the world together. We were both living in poverty, but God provided the means for him to come to Australia; God provided the means for his immigration; God provided everything, he had too as we had nothing but our love for each other, the love of our families and the love of the Lord.
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